It's hard to stay positive in a negative world
With all that's happened to me since my mom died, I can understand what makes people hard and cynical, or makes them turn to some type of escape through gambling, compulsive shopping, drinking, or drug use. It doesn't seem to matter whether you're a good person or not. Everyone will dump on you if they can and nobody cares if you're hurting as long as they get what they want. My mom is gone, my sister pretty much never was around, and then today I found out from my sister that my dad is moving away. He hadn't told me. So I'm going to be really truly alone for the first time in my life and I just feel lost. I don't want to do this alone. I knew I would have to at some time but I had assumed it would be after both of my parents had died and I was hoping my relationship with my sister would have changed or I might have a family of my own by then.